Why do you try to play God?

To game her?

You manipulate your voice, put on emotions, and attempt your various stories.

Are you perhaps not conscious of what you are doing?

Do you not know that she sees right through you?

… That we all do?

‘Can I do it?’

‘Should I do it?’

‘What if I fall?’

‘Is it worth the risk?’

My mind is asking and evaluating, asking and evaluating. My breathing changes. My body tenses.

‘Oh – he already did it.’

you are focusing on the form and not on the substance.

The Seeker approaches the Master meekly and with deep disappointment – almost shame, “Master, I’m trying my best, but -“

And he explains to the Master his devastating difficulties with his practice.

The Master listens intently and responds, “Dear Seeker, do you not know that your practice is that of a Master? Your practice has surpassed even my own – perhaps of any Master that has been before. I am full of joy for you.”

Tears of gratitude well in the Seeker’s eyes. He moves from sadness to elation. He is finally fulfilled. After constant disappointment he has reached the pinnacle of his practice – everything that he has been hoping for and expecting.

The Seeker stands in ecstatic silence, taking in this beautiful overwhelming moment in the presence of the Master. ”I practised and I practised, but I never thought this day would come – and it is here.”

“Yes – and isn’t it interesting that I had to inform you? That my opinion is what has confirmed your mastery? That has made you swell as you have? That has brought you from despair to elation?”

Your limited albeit lofty expectations of what it should be

Block the infinite possibility and beauty of what it could be

You have navigated many hardships

And you are for the moment blessed with Peace.

But it is hardship that strengthens you, you proclaim.

You need only ask, and you shall receive.

The funny thing about humility

Is that you can always get knocked down a peg.

You can only Will things into being?

Seems a little brutish.

Aren’t you tired?

That’s a nice story –

How long do you want to hold on to it?

It is only other-ness that you elevate?

That you defer to?

What is it then that you are really elevating?

…

and putting down?