I had something of an epiphany this week regarding how I view things and people and myself.  I feel as if I have pretty strong… opinions is not the word…  I think that first when I reflect on anything I’m reflecting in relation to myself.  It is my nature to always look to improve my understanding of myself and the world, and so improve the way I live.  When I gain new understanding, it is a trait of mine that I’m able to put this understanding in to practice, even if the practice is completely counter to practices of the masses.

As a result, I find myself, in some ways, living as not many others do.  But, in these ways, I find happiness and peace.  They are a product of my understanding and who I am at the moment and so they work for me.  Above that, I find further satisfaction in that they are counter to the masses.

In this satisfaction of further understanding, I now believe myself able to see the reasons for the suffering of not only myself but of others, as if I have the answers.  It always comes from a good place, but that does not excuse it.  Compounding this is the fact that I do care and think a lot about others so that often I am reasoning out these answers in my head.

But as I said, it is my nature to always look to improve my understanding of myself and the world, and so improve the way I live.  So, now I have a new understanding… and new answers.  But what about those other ones I felt so strongly about?  I think you see what I’m getting at.